I'm finally starting what I have always wanted to do. My absolute dream and goal in life is to teach music. So starting on Saturday, I'll be teaching my niece how to play violin. Yeah, I know, it's actually not that formal cuz technically I don't exactly have any credentials for teaching or a degree in music... yet. But I gotta start small, right? Even if I'm studying to get a music composing major, my main goal is to teach, and hopefully become an orchestra/band director for a school. xD But anyways, I'm just so excited to teach! =D

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Soo.... Summer semester is starting for me tomorrow. Yeah.. I got like, one month and a half break from my spring sem. I'm glad I'll be busy during the summer, instead of going crazy bored. I don't know. I guess I'm still anxious. I mean, sure this is my third semester of college, but it still feels all so new to me. =P

Well besides that, I'm having more nightmares. But not about school, thank god. It's been about my ex boyfriend. Well, we got into this argument and blah blah. i don't really wanna go in depth. but yeah. we stopped talking for awhile. And now i'm having nightmares about him. The nightmares usually consist of me trying to say sorry and he pulls out a gun and shoots me or something. Or he just doesn't believe me, which most likely will happen if i started talking to him again. I don't think I can ever face him again, even if i want to. it's like, i see him log in to either skype or aim (no i don't stalk, its just that notifier thing) and like, i get all anxious and my stomach jumps, and then i remember that we're on bad terms, so i get all sad and i don't try and talk to him.

I just realized the gun thing might make it seem like he was abusive, it's not. it popped up in my dream probably cuz he's in the army >_>

should i talk to him? or should i just let the whole thing go? cuz honestly, with the two options i can see, it's both childish and mature in different perspectives...

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So if no one believed a word I say, even if it is the truth, is there a point in saying anything? Or maybe I could try telling people lies and see if they believe me?

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I didn't get to type these nightmares from the past week, but anyways...

I've had nightmares about my classes for 5 days straight a week ago. I haven't posted anything about it cuz well... I've been needing sleep. During those nights, I literally had only about 2 hours of sleep per night. And even during my 'dreams' i was dreaming that i was in class during a lecture. So when i woke up i had to go to 'real' class. it was like a never ending cycle of school. O___O

I remember from psychology class that we learned that even 3 days without sleep it really fucks up a person. So now i guess i'm a little bit more sane than i was during that week. =\

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